March Madness

Its a new month already and we only have approximately 4 weeks until we fly out to Australia for my brothers wedding and to Aotearoa (NZ) for a quick visit to see family which Darryl has never met before and I am so so happy and am looking forward to some spiritual energy from the land and the people.

Darryl's birthday is coming up and as one of his gifts I decided to get him a full Astrological Birth Chart done which consists of 29 pages mapping out his whole life's purpose and intentions for this lifetime, with the reading he also receives it recorded onto cd so that he has a copy to listen to and reflect on when ever he feels because there is so much information involved that its quite easy to miss something and you can focus on certain areas later on in life. He was pleasantly surprised and enjoyed it very much and he even mentioned that it was very much accurate and I know alot must be going on in his mind. I did listen to his cd's yesterday with his permission and know bloody wonder I was attracted to this man and why we got together, however its knowing our potential is one thing its whether to choose to follow through with it is another and thats where we are in our relationship. I've always known his full potential and know that he if guided in the highest energy can achieve so much especially with both of us together, but at this stage its a lull and we both need to meet at the same place allowing one another to still be individuals, accepting of one another and then bring the positiveness of each other to make for a dynamic couple. Sadly hearing him say that he doesn't want anymore children just makes me wonder about us because I so would love to have at least one more child born from me, cause I know I'll always wonder what if and that feeling will never leave me, so we'll have to see what the outcome of this will be sooner than later I hope.

We took Sydney to get his eye exam yesterday and he has to wear prescription glasses and he cried and cried, I felt so aroha for him but told him it won't change who he is but inhance who he is. We'll just have to take it day by day, he's still my little baby and maybe over time the glasses may help correct his sight however I just need to guide him through this change for him and I know that he'll learn to accept and the glasses will be just like wearing his pounamu (jade) necklace, you know its there but you don't even notice it.

Well signing off for now,
Happy March Madness to All
Racheal
:)

I'm Back, Where Have I been

It's February 27th and where in the world have I been. Well hibernating is an understatement, but yeah thats really all I've been doing these past 3 months, its the winter blues that contributes to my strange reclusive behaviour, I turn into this hermit and lose all touch with the outer world and this year I've literally been hibernating, coming out occassionally to grocery shop and meet girlfriends for an adult conversation but other than that just me and the jammies have become best friends. During my hibernation I've also become this wooly mammoth and have never seen myself in the full natural hairy state before and its quite amusing but will be giving up all the wooly parts next week as I will getting myself ready for our trip back to Australia coming up in April and will need to get my beach bod going as it will still be warm there, such a major shock to the body but someone will have to go through with it and I guess thats me.

Well I will try to drop in again sooner than later.
cheers
racheal
:)

It's A New Year

Monday January 5th and this is the start to my new year, I've been numb and asleep for the past 2 weeks and I'm slowly awakening and I've declared that today is my new year and who will tell me any different anyhow.

I've done all things different I opted out on celebrating christmas and new years like we've always done, I decided to just make myself abscent from it all, from the mayhem from the power struggles and all that, just seeing my boy opening up his gifts and seeing that great big smile was all I needed, bless his heart he orchestrated a beautiful candle ceremony for new years eve, and that just took my breath away. He set up candles all around us and lit them all by himself, this is such a big thing for him as he loves fire so so much but we're teaching him to respect the fire as one mishap can change the energy of the fire and it can destroy if abused. Anyways after lighting the candles he told his daddy and I that we were to make a wish or blessing for our new year and then blow the candles out one by one, he asked if he could do this at 10:30pm we agreed and just as well because 10 minutes after our ceremony he fell asleep, it was beautiful, he must have know within that he couldn't stay up until midnight and I'm glad we did it early, so in between us was our beautiful boy fast asleep, midnight arrives and we kiss and wish each other happy new year as we continue to watch our movie. All is good in the Ward Home.

love & light
r
:)