woke up this morning,
smiled at the rising sun
three little birds
sat by my doorstep
singing a sweet song
a melody pure and true
this is a message for you, ooo ooo
singing don't worry about a thing
cause every little thing
is gonna be alright
sing don't worry about a thing
cause every little thing
is gonna be alright
Honestly I woke up this morning belting this song out of my lungs I just had to release it from my head, I sang it so loud opened my blinds and then laughed at myself and said, "Racheal your such a nugget" and laughed some more. Do you ever feel that sometimes you crack yourself up so much and only you get it, well I have those moments alot.
This week has been amazing for me. It all started about a week ago when my hubby came home from work and said to me he has some bad news, I looked at him and said "What" with that hurry up stop fart arsing around look on my face, "well" he says, "I totally got the dates to our planned vacation to Mrytle Beach screwed up and instead of leaving on the 23rd of June like we said the condo was booked for the 16th and theres no way he could change it" I was surprisingly calm and said "well you and Sydney are going to have a great old time without me aren't you"? The thing was I had made a committment to my friend Michelle 9 months ago that I was going to be there for the birth of her first baby and I'm a woman of my word and no way was I going to change that, Michelle is now 41 weeks and baby could arrive anyday now and my time was her time and I wasn't willing to sacrifice myself once again and then I miss out on what I need to do which benefits not only me but my family as well in ways no-one realizes. The old Darryl would have been pissed and not supportive on my decission however both Darryl & I have had major positive changes in our relationship especially in the past 2 years and the new Darryl just gave me that look of I totally understand and left it at that. Now don't get me wrong I've been looking forward to going to the beach for 2 years now, I grew up on the ocean and having sand, fish n chips waves and watching my son experiencing such delight is what I live for but I knew deep down inside that I'd never forgive myself if I missed out on such a special time like this in Michelle's life, I mean really think about it, experience the birth of my friends first child, going to Myrtle Beach, I can always go to Mrytle beach but I'll never get the opportunity to ever witness Michelle's first birth, it really was a no brainer. She may even not go this week but I made a committment and I'm keeping it because thats how much she means to me. Besides my hubby has never been any where with his son for any long length of time especially 7 days and there was no better time than now to finally have time with his son and his mother, because she was coming with us as well. I felt aroha for my son because he has never been away from me for more than 7 days in his entire life of 7 years but now was the time for the apron strings to be loosened a little and for him to break away and continue to becoming the great man he already is, so I had a week to talk to him and encourage him that he'll be having a wonderful time and even though mummy wasn't there physiclly he just had to close his eyes and place his hand on his heart and he'll see me in his third eye smiling right back at him. I was so proud of him, he totally understood my committment and said he'd pray every night for Michelle and still if "Phin" decides not to come then thats ok to. Sydney totally thinks Michelle is going to have a boy and when I mentioned to Sydney that if they do have a boy they will name him Phinigan and Sydney thought that that was a great name and now refers to Michelles baby as Phin.
So I've been home alone for the past 3 days so far and now you can see why I can wake up singing loud and not disturb anyone else because both my boyz are at the beach. It's been absolutely great not having to think for 3 and just think for me, eat when I want, sleep when I want and just be, its like being at a retreat, I haven't done this since Sydney was born and it been a long time coming and I'm so grateful because I so needed this rejuvenation of my spirit because they will benefit from it as well and this summer promises to be huge because for the first time we'll be having family from both our families here at one time for my hubby's family reunion, my parents get to meet his family for the first time so our home is going to be full of relatives, kids and noises that I haven't heard for a very long long time and I can't wait.
Well its 9:45am and I need to get on with my day, its so beautiful today and I'm looking forward to having lunch with my girls.
:)
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